Apologies

Sorry everyone for not being my usual, ornery, laughing self this night. After ignoring my worries, stresses, and problems for most of Tuesday during the signing (though I did worry about Samhain down in Florida, hoping things were alright for her and her cats), it was rather hard to ignore them today...

They all came back with a vengenance, submerging me where I barely able to breathe. I've been battling the need to cry all day, and my youngest helped in that manner. He was a sick little guy earlier.

I knew sooner or later something was gonna trigger it. I really have not let myself cry. Yes, I moped around about it, withdrawing a little into myself, yet I never let myself full-blown cry about it.

All this stress has gave me a headache. Just that annoying "Yes I'm here" throbbing. I took IBproufin, and when that didn't seem to help, I took a little more. Still isn't working on this damn headache. That just made me extremely tired.

Then in chat I simply lost my composure.

After this episode, not entirely sure if I'll be on-line tomorrow. I need to get myself together, to re-settle myself